Who Cares???

Nothing ever turns out like I plan it to. All of this is bullshit. I get up each day and go to work, and for what? To pay other people? To accumulate THINGS? To pay for school so I can go out in the world and try to change things? Nothing will ever change! It never does. People will never stop being assholes! They never do. Today I witnessed this guy getting super pissed and throwing a temper tantrum because he got carded...really? Is it THAT big of a deal that he needed to make everyone uncomfortable by screaming that he was being disrespected?? Really? Apparently it was. That is how it is. The world sucks. People suck. Everything sucks. Every human being on earth, with the exception of a few courageous people, are giant assholes who are totally self absorbed...including me! Life is so fucking stupid. What the hell is the point of it all? Snuggling with my cats is the only thing besides cigarettes that brings me any joy. Otherwise, it's all me making an effort to pretend to be "OK"...and I convince myself of that and then all of this bullshit that life brings surfaces and I land here. In limbo. Unsure of anything. Unimpressed by everything. My new job keeps my mind occupied, but only for about 4-5 hours a day. Otherwise, it's just time to think about how much I hate life and people. Awesome. I'm going to snuggle with my cats. After I smoke a cigarette.