Oh Spinster...What Are You Doing?

When I started dating again, I was unsure of what I was looking for. At first, I thought I wanted a real relationship, then I changed my mind. Then I thought I wanted a casual relationship, and changed my mind. Back and forth, flip-flopping, always unsure. I realized that although I like life to be easy, I also like to have human connections. So this is something I am pursuing. I know I said I was cool with this arrangement with E, but apparently I am full of shit. There, I said it. So, now I will try something else. I will go into more detail when I'm not exhausted and hungover. Another day.