Jealousy and Cynicism

I'm jealous of those of you that get to experience new romance...I wish I could have new romance, however, I wish new, exciting romance didn't turn so stale. Call me a cynic, I call myself a cynic all the time. It's fine. I am. But new romance is inspiring and exciting, it makes for great writing because emotions are running wild with the sheer force of the NEW ROMANCE...eventually, and unfortunately, that excitement and inspiration fades and it turns into regular life, and that is when I get bored. It's sad. I'm jealous. I want to feel that excitement, but the cynic inside me won't allow it, because I know that it doesn't last. I'm jealous.